Rain

Mar15

Every day I come home and I cry
Against silence I dare not sigh
The fire within me has died
My worth no longer justified

Every day I come home and I cry
As if stars have come down from the sky
Within myself I found a good place to hide
My worth no longer justified

Every day I come home and I cry
My thoughts are screaming to defy
I wish it was safe to confide
My worth no longer justified

Every day I come home and I cry
Frozen in time I can’t even try
The emptiness tears me apart
And spills the rain inside my heart

Locked Away

Feb17

You came to me during dark skies
Most likely deafened by my cries.
I looked at you through stormy eyes
You did your best to help me rise.

You listened and you gave advice
Without expecting any price.
There was however sacrifice
Something I didn’t think of twice.

I pulled you in unwittingly,
And you gave in so willingly;
Thinking your heart could happily
Save me from my reality.

The darkness that surrounded me,
Locked in on you when you were free;
It embraced you with such glee
That you had no time to flee.

We’re both sitting here in darkness
Cold and lost, inches from madness.
I can only watch with sadness,
How it turns you cruel and heartless.

Little did I realize
That my darkness justifies
All the ugly little lies
That are falling from my eyes.

And as I try to set you free
I finally begin to see,
That I alone still hold the key…
I locked away the best of me.

Chained

Dec7

Before I fall asleep tonight
I’ll pray anew with all my might
Please take my heart and hold it tight
Don’t turn the shadows into light.

Squeeze tighter with each breath I take
I won’t mind the delay or shake
Yet if you see my eyes awake
Squeezer harder ‘til you feel it break.

Before I fall asleep tonight
I’ll pray again with all my might
My soul to take an endless flight…
When chained to hell, there is no light.

Walking Away

Oct24

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The day she’ll walk into your life
I’ll feel the striking of the knife;
You will no longer want me here
There’ll be no need for me so near.

The day I’ll see her in your arms
My spirit will not bear harms,
For it will splinter up and break
With every breath that I will take.

The day I’ll walk away from you
A hundred blades will cut me through.
And as I turn then will I pray
For strength to keep looking away.

The day that I will say goodbye
Will be the day my heart will die.
I’ll walk away and won’t return
For you and I, I’ll always mourn.

The silent smile on my face
Will hide the pain I can’t erase,
Pain, agonizing and unbending
Just know that I will be pretending.

Letting Go

Sep25

You’ve become a stranger brought forth
Whose silence makes me question my worth,
I deserve your disdain and questioning ways
The pain that I caused governs all of my days.

I ask myself every day to stop trying,
But the thought makes it feel like I’m dying.
I reach for your hand as the end rushes near
To find nothing but air, now it’s perfectly clear.

I don’t want to give up, walk away and forget
But I’m trying to breathe through all the regret.
I re-read how it was and the love that I felt
Now making the best of the hand that I’ve dealt.

I have to let go or I’ll drown in this grief;
This enveloping sorrow I hope will be brief
I’ll smile and lie and say ‘I’m alright”
Hoping the tears will stop if I keep it inside.

Waiting

Sep16

I wait and wait without an end in sight.
I pull and want with all my might.
But I’m just tired of the fight,
And no longer know what’s right.

Should I stay or should I go
I cannot tell, nor do I know.
‘Accept it and just ride the flow’
It’s not an option… it’s a blow.

In the end I might be running
But I hope I may be learning,
That some flames will not be burning
No matter how strong the yearning.

I’ll be crushed then I’ll be set
You’ll be my greatest regret.
My only hope is to forget
The day we so easily met.

I tell myself to stay and try
To not give in and say goodbye.
The target though was set so high
That it seem like it’s a lie.

I wait and wait without an end in sight.
I pull and want with all my might.
But I’m so tired of the fight,
I no longer know what’s right.

Inner Demons

Aug27

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I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
They mock and laugh, and then hit back
And easily get back on track.

I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
They gently brush away my hair
I take a breath but there’s no air.

I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
I shake them off just for an instant
They grab on tight, they are resistant.

I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
I choose to face them feeling stronger,
They smile back and hold me longer.

I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
I’m giving up and slowly fade
Give in, find solace in their shade.

I’m building walls they have to climb,
Push them away time after time.
The demons offer their embrace
I just give in and take my place.

They find me when I’m all alone
And cut me down to the bone.
I’m slowly learning how to die
My silenced eyes no longer cry.

A Poison Tree – William Blake

Jan26

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I was angry with my friend:
I told my wrath, my wrath did end.
I was angry with my foe:
I told it not, my wrath did grow.

And I watered it in fears
Night and morning with my tears,
And I sunned it with smiles
And with soft deceitful wiles.

And it grew both day and night,
Till it bore an apple bright,
And my foe beheld it shine,
And he knew that it was mine,–

And into my garden stole
When the night had veiled the pole;
In the morning, glad, I see
My foe outstretched beneath the tree.

Dreams of Death – by Jeff Prior

Jan16

Dreams of death are nothing new,
I’ve had those dreams, you’ve had them too.
Sometimes death doesn’t sound so bad,
It can’t be worse than the day I’ve had.
A stain on my soul and a wound to my pride,
Sometimes I think I’m broken inside.
Troubled dreams and a restless night,
Another day, another pointless fight.

Dreams of death are nothing new,
I’ve had those dreams, I’ve lived them too.
Some days death strikes fear in my soul,
Everything ends, life takes its toll.
A pain in my heart and regrets in my head,
Do we still feel pain after we’re dead?
Troubled thoughts and a twisted dream,
Another day, another torn seam.

Dreams of death are nothing new,
I’ve had those dreams, I’ve denied them too.
Some things can’t be believed,
Some deaths are never grieved.
A lie on my lips and despair in my heart,
Is it too late for another fresh start?
Troubled past and a dark path ahead,
Another day, another toast to the dead.

Dreams of death are nothing new,
I’ve had those dreams, I’ve believed them too.
Some people think they’ll never die,
They live their life believing that lie.
A dream of tomorrow and a nightmare of yesterday,
Is there ever a winner in this game we play?
Troubled soul, and a dark cloud overhead,
Another day, another liar is dead.

Perspective – A Poem by Shivangi Shankar

Oct25

Every girl that ever lived
Was told that essential tale
Of girls being Goddesses
Despite their looks so frail.

Every girl that ever grew
Was fed, nurtured, taught
Lessons in cooking, sewing, too
To behave as she ought.

Every girl that ever read
Was feared, envied, eyed
With misapprehensions, unease
For she was no longer tied.

Every girl that ever won
Was told that girls were better
Motivated every other day
To be the trend setter.

Every girl that ever worked
Was compelled to manage all-
Work and family and herself
Gave her best, stood tall.

Every girl that ever lived
Was unable to sustain
All that she had dreamt for herself
Seemed to be in vain.

Every girl that ever lived
Was proper, dignified
She would fall short sometimes, though
Yet she always tried.

Every girl that ever lived
Would realise one fine day
That she wasn’t born with ten hands
Whatever the world may say.

Every girl that ever lived
Would have an epiphany bright
That she didn’t want to be a Goddess at all
To err, be human, her right.

Satisfyingly Complicated

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