Genuine, caring individuals are difficult to find.
You know the ones I’m talking about…
The one person who will stay up with you at night and answer your texts.
The one who will hold you up no matter what.
The one who will listen to you complain about your life, your ex, your mother, or your brother.
The person who listens no matter what, no matter the time and no matter the issue.
The one you run to when you’re down.
The one you never run to when you’re up.
The one who compliments you only to be hit back with “it’s not true.”
The one who tries to pick you up only to be shot down by your insecurities again and again and again.
Yes, these people do exist. I know this because I found one.
An inspiring soul whom I adore and admire.
I found this incredible person and I threw them away…
I over-analyzed and read meaning into every spoken word.
I focused on nothing but the negative.
I didn’t ask what I could do for them.
I pushed this person away again and again and again until they stayed away.
I allowed my insecurities to sabotage a lovely friendship with this person.
You don’t recognize what you’ve done or what you have until it’s too late.
So late that your heart splinters with the realization that no apology is ever enough. Because you have done it again and again.
Apologies are now meaningless.
You hope, however, and pray every single moment of every day that they will forgive your missteps and reach out.
There’s no reason for them to believe your words because your actions have been atrocious.
The best thing that happened to you in a while had enough. And you deserve this dreadful, heart wrenching loss.
Remarkably this person does not believes they are amazing, wonderful, and simply awe-inspiring.
The extraordinarily pure heart they have makes them believe there’s nothing out of the ordinary about them.
I want my person to know that while they may not mean anything to this world, they mean the world to me.